But I never told you everything
I'm losing hope and fading dreams
And every single memory along the way

HAHAHAHA

daph: -walks into the kitchen- wahlao hungry sia.
dad: you want to eat one duck drumstick?
daph: -excited look- okok yes yes.
dad: eh this drumstick abit botak cos scattered around the soup, but nvm hor?
daph: nvm one. -thinking i shouldnt eat too much too since its already late-

ONE HOUR LATER

mum: girl girl, come i tell you a secret.
daph: what?
mum: just now the duck drumstick you eat, is meimei eat halfway dont want already then i put back one.
daph: WAHLAO?! daddy still tell me the duck meat scattered around the soup.
mum: nobody knows, except me!

I spent my day:

- watching telly
- eating
- walking around the house looking around (super bo liao)

i'm not chasing any dramas online now because i have already finished those i wanted to watch while studying for Os a few weeks back. i'm regretting that now! feeling so bored at home that i'm actually catching the 9pm serial drama everyday. BUT the show really got me laughing out loud when i was watching it alone in the living room. Shingz now that i have freedom, i don't even know what i should do. how come when i was studying, there were so many things i can find to do, yet now? SHING SHING SHING ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

Hi freedom




something funny happened just now. after collecting the papers, a few names got called out and i was one of them. we were like wondering why were we even called out. we thought we were caught cheating or whatever (cos we were talking right after the papers got collected). in the end is because......... we didn't pay for our physics TYS. Zzz k so lame.

finally............ it's the end of the O levels! but i am not even feeling very happy now. i have no plans for tonight. i've got no life!!!!!!!!! who's free tonight? let's go out together.

feel like going for a run, but it looks like it's gonna rain anytime.

I'M FEELING VERY DOWN.

Boring like hell

i just had my F&N paper in the afternoon and i think it went quite alright. there was a number of questions i don't really know how to answer because i forgotten all about it but i still managed to bomb a little nonsense in. that's exactly what i liked about F&N. even if you don't remember, you still can bomb (and get some marks)! ok so after the paper, i went home as it looked like it was going to rain anytime. Zzz so no life. now i'm very bored. no plans for tomorrow too. YAWNS

nickelback - never gonna be alone

Time is going by
So much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you
Now I'm wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of it to you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone
From this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go
I won't let you fall
You're never gonna be alone
I'll hold you 'till the hurt is gone

And now as long as I can
I'm holding on with both hands
'Cause forever I believe
That there's nothing I could need but you
So if I haven't yet,
I've gotta let you know

You've gotta live every single day
Like its the only one
What if tomorrow never comes
Don't let it slip away, could be our only one
You know it's only just begun
Every single day, may be our only one
What if tomorrow never comes
Tomorrow never comes

I'm gonna be there all the way
I won't be missing one more day
I'm gonna be there all the way
I won't be missing one more day

I just went down to get..

I don't wanna keep running away..

served in children's church this morning. morning felt a little cold, i don't know why. and i felt a little guilty. today during serving, one of the jams people took my blueberry tea and poured over the presents which were meant for the kids. if i didn't buy the blueberry tea...... :( but! blueberry tea is great. i will always buy a bottle of it at the boon lay bus interchange on my way to church.

after serving, i went to the opposite kfc to have my lunch alone. Hmm i think this is the first time i'm eating alone outside and i think i will never ever want to eat alone outside again. not that it is pathetic or whatever, but it was just so boring. i only bought a snackers meal and it felt like i'm eating some steamboat buffet. the food just don't seemed as much appetizing even tho i was feeling hungry at that time. yea and it seemed like no matter what, i couldn't finish the food.

Service was great! even tho i felt like falling asleep at some parts of the service. As long as you're fixed on what you're going through, you'll never discover what God has planned for you.........

after service:
- dinner @ best coffeeshop with cg
- shopping @ JP
- catching @ playground

hahahaha thanks aaron for borrowing his cool board shorts. i looked so weird in it.

back at home on a cold, quiet night.

:( :( :( :( :( :(





do i look like a turtle carrying xianghua's bag? lol.



here's my signature face. \m/





tskkkkkk

my buddy, wah rao!!!!


in that board shorts....

i was feeling so tired in the afternoon that instead of doing up my fnn notes, i went to take a short nap for like 2 hours. woke up, dragged my feet to get prepared and then made my way to nick's house alone for cgm. (i felt like i wore pyjamas to cgm haha.) cgm was great. hahhaha after cgm, we went to nick's room and started browsing videos on youtube. from pck to boomz girl to boy with cute voice's singing to baby dancing to watch 100 times without laughing and to nei xiang boy. unknowingly, it was already 11pm and we couldn't have our supper together because later no last train.

How you remind me

i ended up MIA myself for like one hour then we decided to go swimming again. met up with the girls and headed up to nicholas' house to deal with that T thing. and in the end, only leejie did it. she was the first one to do it and she looked so uncomfortable hahaha so we decided to skip that. shihui and johnny came afterwards after jaslyn and weiling left soon.

we continued to swim for a lil while before heading to Jacuzzi! i was facing the steam bath room while leejie, johnny and nick face the other way. then suddenly a naked indian man stood there at the door of the steam bath room... moments later, i started screaming away. (just imagine a naked man standing in front of you....) so i went over to their side to face the other way round and they wanted to distract ourselves from that "free show" by bringing up random topics like... johnny going to sec 3 camp. lol and that naked man stood there like sheeeeeok for quite a long time. Zzz

had dinner then decided to stayover at nick's house since it was late already. shihui went home and jaren and garrick came afterwards. managed to catch some sleep at only 6am like that and woke up at around 10am. i was one of the last few to sleep so no bed, no pillow.. just one bolster? used that as pillow that didnt help much so.. feeling very uncomfortable. :( throughout the whole night, everyone's obsessed with movies, dramas and short clips. earlier in the night, we were catching Chick vs dick on nick's iPhone. later at night, Saw 5 showing in the living room, and Fight back to school showing in nick's room. the next morning, nick was catching Hotshot while everyone was sleeping away.










leejie's freaking fake nails (she was looking for her missing fake thumbnail at night, so irritating!)



















it's alright, i'm fine..

Zzz

(angry post) Sian sian sian very sian. boring thursday. supposed to go swimming at nick's house but it was cancelled anyway. sian i still thought maybe today can have some fun. and it looks like everyone's working or MIA. Zzz whatever. go and continue to MIA ok? i'm gonna bury myself in dramas and fnn notes, and MIA myself. Bye!

P.S dramas can take you into dreams, away from reality.

Happy

finally.. remember me talking about 75% freedom after today's Physics and Geography paper? ok i think i'm breathing 100% freedom already. cel and i were just talking about what we are gonna do after Os. cel will be going to work.. what about me? seems like everyone has their holidays planned already. i guess.. my holidays are gonna be boring? :( Today supposingly going to nicholas' house for swimming together with the rest but it was cancelled in the end. sad... at first i was thinking, wah so good after paper can go enjoy already. Now i'm feeling so bored!!!!!!!

oh yes during Physics paper today, after finishing up the paper, i still have got 30 minutes left so i went to sleep. i remembered having this dream which is also in the school hall, taking Physics paper. in the dream, i was also sleeping. then suddenly i heard people talking and sharing answers! then i started to look around. there are no invigilators walking around, except for one lying on the ground. feeling very much excited, i started to sit up, wanting to compare answers with others.. but i realised i was dreaming. thank God i didn't really stand up and started talking away. Zzz

Yay next paper's on Monday. i'm free the whole day tomorrow!

Somewhere tonight

I gotta feeling! that tonight's gonna be a good night! it's 11:59pm now hahaha like one more minute to midnight. everytime at this time when i'm out with friends, i will ask them if anyone's birthday is coming up, so i can wish them. it's like a habit already. ok but i don't think 4 november is anyone's birthday.. k i'm feeling so so so not tired now. maybe i'm better off without coffee! there's Physics and Geography paper tomorrow. and i just realised Physics will be in the morning. thank God so far i did physics only. (but i still don't understand Light, and Magnetism.) more to go! it's gonna be a long night.^^ but i worry i'll feel tired tomorrow during the exam, like how i did yesterday. Haiz pray for me k.

actually studying is not really a bad thing. i know this may sound weird but i think i'll even miss studying after Os. i'll miss school. actually i hate to leave secondary school. i feel like i'm already old. :( i don't want. plz remember i'm only 16 now. to be exact, 16 years and 3 months old. i'm still young!

wow i'm feeling excited already. like tomorrow after both papers, i will be breathing 75% freedom! i'll only be left with FNN and science mcq paper the next week. Yay so it means.. i can go out and some fun after tomorrow already!!!!

i'm feeling so chatty now. and i wish i can go on and on..

I don't wanna play that part

Hmm i can smell abit of freedom now haha. ok and yes! coffee officially does not work for me. at all. i ended up falling asleep at 1am without memorising anything. what's worse is i even felt like falling asleep during exams today. Zzz i went to school in the morning to see almost everyone studying Venice. so i told Celeste that i hope Venice don't come out so at least i won't die alone. wow and indeed, Venice didn't come for both sbq and seq. weeeee i'm not alone! anyway in the end i still screwed up my SS paper... the first question shows a picture of a poster that says 'Hitler is back!'. seriously i know nothing about Hitler. i only know he had only one ball. lol.

had breakfast at sunplaza mac with Cel! Yay i'm collecting the game labels! after breakfast, headed back to school for Chemistry paper. it was kinda easy! and now here i am, at home! weeeee and there's no exam tomorrow!

Wah and i really feel like going for a movie now.

next thing to worry: Physics. :( :( :( (sombody save me!)

But I never told you everything
I'm losing hope and fading dreams
And every single memory along the way

HAHAHAHA

daph: -walks into the kitchen- wahlao hungry sia.
dad: you want to eat one duck drumstick?
daph: -excited look- okok yes yes.
dad: eh this drumstick abit botak cos scattered around the soup, but nvm hor?
daph: nvm one. -thinking i shouldnt eat too much too since its already late-

ONE HOUR LATER

mum: girl girl, come i tell you a secret.
daph: what?
mum: just now the duck drumstick you eat, is meimei eat halfway dont want already then i put back one.
daph: WAHLAO?! daddy still tell me the duck meat scattered around the soup.
mum: nobody knows, except me!

I spent my day:

- watching telly
- eating
- walking around the house looking around (super bo liao)

i'm not chasing any dramas online now because i have already finished those i wanted to watch while studying for Os a few weeks back. i'm regretting that now! feeling so bored at home that i'm actually catching the 9pm serial drama everyday. BUT the show really got me laughing out loud when i was watching it alone in the living room. Shingz now that i have freedom, i don't even know what i should do. how come when i was studying, there were so many things i can find to do, yet now? SHING SHING SHING ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

Hi freedom




something funny happened just now. after collecting the papers, a few names got called out and i was one of them. we were like wondering why were we even called out. we thought we were caught cheating or whatever (cos we were talking right after the papers got collected). in the end is because......... we didn't pay for our physics TYS. Zzz k so lame.

finally............ it's the end of the O levels! but i am not even feeling very happy now. i have no plans for tonight. i've got no life!!!!!!!!! who's free tonight? let's go out together.

feel like going for a run, but it looks like it's gonna rain anytime.

I'M FEELING VERY DOWN.

Boring like hell

i just had my F&N paper in the afternoon and i think it went quite alright. there was a number of questions i don't really know how to answer because i forgotten all about it but i still managed to bomb a little nonsense in. that's exactly what i liked about F&N. even if you don't remember, you still can bomb (and get some marks)! ok so after the paper, i went home as it looked like it was going to rain anytime. Zzz so no life. now i'm very bored. no plans for tomorrow too. YAWNS

nickelback - never gonna be alone

Time is going by
So much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you
Now I'm wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of it to you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone
From this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go
I won't let you fall
You're never gonna be alone
I'll hold you 'till the hurt is gone

And now as long as I can
I'm holding on with both hands
'Cause forever I believe
That there's nothing I could need but you
So if I haven't yet,
I've gotta let you know

You've gotta live every single day
Like its the only one
What if tomorrow never comes
Don't let it slip away, could be our only one
You know it's only just begun
Every single day, may be our only one
What if tomorrow never comes
Tomorrow never comes

I'm gonna be there all the way
I won't be missing one more day
I'm gonna be there all the way
I won't be missing one more day

I just went down to get..

I don't wanna keep running away..

served in children's church this morning. morning felt a little cold, i don't know why. and i felt a little guilty. today during serving, one of the jams people took my blueberry tea and poured over the presents which were meant for the kids. if i didn't buy the blueberry tea...... :( but! blueberry tea is great. i will always buy a bottle of it at the boon lay bus interchange on my way to church.

after serving, i went to the opposite kfc to have my lunch alone. Hmm i think this is the first time i'm eating alone outside and i think i will never ever want to eat alone outside again. not that it is pathetic or whatever, but it was just so boring. i only bought a snackers meal and it felt like i'm eating some steamboat buffet. the food just don't seemed as much appetizing even tho i was feeling hungry at that time. yea and it seemed like no matter what, i couldn't finish the food.

Service was great! even tho i felt like falling asleep at some parts of the service. As long as you're fixed on what you're going through, you'll never discover what God has planned for you.........

after service:
- dinner @ best coffeeshop with cg
- shopping @ JP
- catching @ playground

hahahaha thanks aaron for borrowing his cool board shorts. i looked so weird in it.

back at home on a cold, quiet night.

:( :( :( :( :( :(





do i look like a turtle carrying xianghua's bag? lol.



here's my signature face. \m/





tskkkkkk

my buddy, wah rao!!!!


in that board shorts....

i was feeling so tired in the afternoon that instead of doing up my fnn notes, i went to take a short nap for like 2 hours. woke up, dragged my feet to get prepared and then made my way to nick's house alone for cgm. (i felt like i wore pyjamas to cgm haha.) cgm was great. hahhaha after cgm, we went to nick's room and started browsing videos on youtube. from pck to boomz girl to boy with cute voice's singing to baby dancing to watch 100 times without laughing and to nei xiang boy. unknowingly, it was already 11pm and we couldn't have our supper together because later no last train.

How you remind me

i ended up MIA myself for like one hour then we decided to go swimming again. met up with the girls and headed up to nicholas' house to deal with that T thing. and in the end, only leejie did it. she was the first one to do it and she looked so uncomfortable hahaha so we decided to skip that. shihui and johnny came afterwards after jaslyn and weiling left soon.

we continued to swim for a lil while before heading to Jacuzzi! i was facing the steam bath room while leejie, johnny and nick face the other way. then suddenly a naked indian man stood there at the door of the steam bath room... moments later, i started screaming away. (just imagine a naked man standing in front of you....) so i went over to their side to face the other way round and they wanted to distract ourselves from that "free show" by bringing up random topics like... johnny going to sec 3 camp. lol and that naked man stood there like sheeeeeok for quite a long time. Zzz

had dinner then decided to stayover at nick's house since it was late already. shihui went home and jaren and garrick came afterwards. managed to catch some sleep at only 6am like that and woke up at around 10am. i was one of the last few to sleep so no bed, no pillow.. just one bolster? used that as pillow that didnt help much so.. feeling very uncomfortable. :( throughout the whole night, everyone's obsessed with movies, dramas and short clips. earlier in the night, we were catching Chick vs dick on nick's iPhone. later at night, Saw 5 showing in the living room, and Fight back to school showing in nick's room. the next morning, nick was catching Hotshot while everyone was sleeping away.










leejie's freaking fake nails (she was looking for her missing fake thumbnail at night, so irritating!)



















it's alright, i'm fine..

Zzz

(angry post) Sian sian sian very sian. boring thursday. supposed to go swimming at nick's house but it was cancelled anyway. sian i still thought maybe today can have some fun. and it looks like everyone's working or MIA. Zzz whatever. go and continue to MIA ok? i'm gonna bury myself in dramas and fnn notes, and MIA myself. Bye!

P.S dramas can take you into dreams, away from reality.

Happy

finally.. remember me talking about 75% freedom after today's Physics and Geography paper? ok i think i'm breathing 100% freedom already. cel and i were just talking about what we are gonna do after Os. cel will be going to work.. what about me? seems like everyone has their holidays planned already. i guess.. my holidays are gonna be boring? :( Today supposingly going to nicholas' house for swimming together with the rest but it was cancelled in the end. sad... at first i was thinking, wah so good after paper can go enjoy already. Now i'm feeling so bored!!!!!!!

oh yes during Physics paper today, after finishing up the paper, i still have got 30 minutes left so i went to sleep. i remembered having this dream which is also in the school hall, taking Physics paper. in the dream, i was also sleeping. then suddenly i heard people talking and sharing answers! then i started to look around. there are no invigilators walking around, except for one lying on the ground. feeling very much excited, i started to sit up, wanting to compare answers with others.. but i realised i was dreaming. thank God i didn't really stand up and started talking away. Zzz

Yay next paper's on Monday. i'm free the whole day tomorrow!

Somewhere tonight

I gotta feeling! that tonight's gonna be a good night! it's 11:59pm now hahaha like one more minute to midnight. everytime at this time when i'm out with friends, i will ask them if anyone's birthday is coming up, so i can wish them. it's like a habit already. ok but i don't think 4 november is anyone's birthday.. k i'm feeling so so so not tired now. maybe i'm better off without coffee! there's Physics and Geography paper tomorrow. and i just realised Physics will be in the morning. thank God so far i did physics only. (but i still don't understand Light, and Magnetism.) more to go! it's gonna be a long night.^^ but i worry i'll feel tired tomorrow during the exam, like how i did yesterday. Haiz pray for me k.

actually studying is not really a bad thing. i know this may sound weird but i think i'll even miss studying after Os. i'll miss school. actually i hate to leave secondary school. i feel like i'm already old. :( i don't want. plz remember i'm only 16 now. to be exact, 16 years and 3 months old. i'm still young!

wow i'm feeling excited already. like tomorrow after both papers, i will be breathing 75% freedom! i'll only be left with FNN and science mcq paper the next week. Yay so it means.. i can go out and some fun after tomorrow already!!!!

i'm feeling so chatty now. and i wish i can go on and on..

I don't wanna play that part

Hmm i can smell abit of freedom now haha. ok and yes! coffee officially does not work for me. at all. i ended up falling asleep at 1am without memorising anything. what's worse is i even felt like falling asleep during exams today. Zzz i went to school in the morning to see almost everyone studying Venice. so i told Celeste that i hope Venice don't come out so at least i won't die alone. wow and indeed, Venice didn't come for both sbq and seq. weeeee i'm not alone! anyway in the end i still screwed up my SS paper... the first question shows a picture of a poster that says 'Hitler is back!'. seriously i know nothing about Hitler. i only know he had only one ball. lol.

had breakfast at sunplaza mac with Cel! Yay i'm collecting the game labels! after breakfast, headed back to school for Chemistry paper. it was kinda easy! and now here i am, at home! weeeee and there's no exam tomorrow!

Wah and i really feel like going for a movie now.

next thing to worry: Physics. :( :( :( (sombody save me!)